I got an email a few days ago that I did not get the job. I need the job as my mother and I are in a tigh money situation and I made some mistakes upon getting my first job, including maxing out a credit card. I am in some deep debt and wanting to get married in the next couple of years, I don't feel right bringing that debt into my marriage if I can avoid it. When I do get married, I hope to be a housewife more than anything but I am in college. I want to have a back-up plan because you never know what can happen.
I am still praying for a job. I want to crawl out from under the debt and help my mom with our living situation. I need to help her since it is just us two.
Please keep me in your prayers.
Please keep me in your prayers because I am dealing with some other stuff, stuff I won't mention really, but it is difficult and is making it harder for me to keep things in perspective.
Peace and love.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Praying!
I am praying very hard that God provides me with a job very soon. Since my mom and I moved out on our own again, money has been incredibly tight. Small money blessings have come in, like a refund check from my car insurance for a fault on their part. So, I will be able to get some groceries with that. But otherwise, I really need a job and soon!
I just applied for a job that would be perfect for me. Right pay, right hours, right conditions. But I had to do a voice audition on the phone and I'm pretty sure I failed it horribly. It gave you 30 seconds to answer each question and I'm pretty sure it cut me off a full 15 seconds too early on the 2nd question and then I was flustered and didn't even register the last question and whimpered pitifully into the recording. I'm hoping my other answers and the rest of the application were enough they might at least give me an interview. The problem for me has always been getting the interview. The last 3 jobs I had, I was always offered the job on the spot at the end of the interview. I feel confident that interview means a good chance of getting the job.
If anyone reads this blog, please pray for me!
Thanks!
Peace and love,
Elisabeth
I just applied for a job that would be perfect for me. Right pay, right hours, right conditions. But I had to do a voice audition on the phone and I'm pretty sure I failed it horribly. It gave you 30 seconds to answer each question and I'm pretty sure it cut me off a full 15 seconds too early on the 2nd question and then I was flustered and didn't even register the last question and whimpered pitifully into the recording. I'm hoping my other answers and the rest of the application were enough they might at least give me an interview. The problem for me has always been getting the interview. The last 3 jobs I had, I was always offered the job on the spot at the end of the interview. I feel confident that interview means a good chance of getting the job.
If anyone reads this blog, please pray for me!
Thanks!
Peace and love,
Elisabeth
Monday, September 21, 2009
Update!
Wow, it has been a long time! I wonder if anyone still reads this thing...?
Anywho, a lot has happened since I last posted. The biggest thing being that my mom and her new husband have decided they are not as compatible as originally thought- they are in the process of a divorce. A lesson learned on why courting/engagement should last a little longer than three months, I think. It might not have been so bad if they had known each other before they got engaged but it was literally four months from meeting each other to the wedding day. That's not a lot of time!
So, my mother and I have found a nice apartment. The ceilings are high, we each have our own bathroom and the neighborhood is small. I love this place. I especially love that there is a higher population of elderly- they are so sweet and always wave at anybody who passes by. Even the kids here are quiet, well-mannered and peaceful. It's great.
I have not been able to acquire anymore skirts yet- I still haven't found a job either. I am working on it but it just feels like that blessing may never come. I am in school now though, furthering my education and learning the art of hospitality and business. I would love one day to be able to open my own restaurant! That's what I am studying to do.
I have material stashed away that I intend to make a skirt out of soon. Just an incredibly simple skirt to match my large wardrobe of earthy, brown shirts.
Another big thing that may happen in the future is that my mother and I may end up moving back east. We hail from Ohio and all my family are there. I miss them so much! We may rest in Pennsylvania, Pittburgh to be exact. It is close to the family but far enough away. Plus, that area of the country is slightly more accustomed to an Amish population. I love the Amish and being around them- so peaceful and tranquil. Sometimes I consider joining them but not sure if I ever really could. We'd move to Pennsylvania because my mom has exhausted all the hospitals in Columbus- some she would never work at again but I think she would just like a different environment to explore rather than go back to the same old, same old.
Well, that's about it for now, really.
I will try to update this more often!
In the meantime, I am praying that the Lord will provide me with the right employment opportunity; He has really come through for us lately in terms of helping us secure a place to live and be able to afford it and get by comfortably rather than struggling. I can only pray He will help me with finding a job soon too.
God Bless!
Anywho, a lot has happened since I last posted. The biggest thing being that my mom and her new husband have decided they are not as compatible as originally thought- they are in the process of a divorce. A lesson learned on why courting/engagement should last a little longer than three months, I think. It might not have been so bad if they had known each other before they got engaged but it was literally four months from meeting each other to the wedding day. That's not a lot of time!
So, my mother and I have found a nice apartment. The ceilings are high, we each have our own bathroom and the neighborhood is small. I love this place. I especially love that there is a higher population of elderly- they are so sweet and always wave at anybody who passes by. Even the kids here are quiet, well-mannered and peaceful. It's great.
I have not been able to acquire anymore skirts yet- I still haven't found a job either. I am working on it but it just feels like that blessing may never come. I am in school now though, furthering my education and learning the art of hospitality and business. I would love one day to be able to open my own restaurant! That's what I am studying to do.
I have material stashed away that I intend to make a skirt out of soon. Just an incredibly simple skirt to match my large wardrobe of earthy, brown shirts.
Another big thing that may happen in the future is that my mother and I may end up moving back east. We hail from Ohio and all my family are there. I miss them so much! We may rest in Pennsylvania, Pittburgh to be exact. It is close to the family but far enough away. Plus, that area of the country is slightly more accustomed to an Amish population. I love the Amish and being around them- so peaceful and tranquil. Sometimes I consider joining them but not sure if I ever really could. We'd move to Pennsylvania because my mom has exhausted all the hospitals in Columbus- some she would never work at again but I think she would just like a different environment to explore rather than go back to the same old, same old.
Well, that's about it for now, really.
I will try to update this more often!
In the meantime, I am praying that the Lord will provide me with the right employment opportunity; He has really come through for us lately in terms of helping us secure a place to live and be able to afford it and get by comfortably rather than struggling. I can only pray He will help me with finding a job soon too.
God Bless!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Friday!
I like Fridays. I got to spend a little time with my mother this morning and that was nice. We did a little shopping and she bought me a new shirt. She also gave me some money she owed me for a project and gave me some grocery money. My dear mother also helped me decide on my new glasses. When I originally tried them on, I wasn't sure but they fit my wider-than-average face perfectly. So, her intense encouragement and excitement that they flattered my face was very nice. I am glad. I was debating intensely with myself about choosing function over style. My insurance would only cover certain frames, so my choices were limited unless I wanted to pay out hundreds of dollars I don't have. So, she helped me make that decision and I should get them sometime next week. Now I'm very excited, I will be able to see properly! (When I got to Arizona in September, my old ones broke so I've been wearing my weak back-up pair for 6 months.)
I went shopping by myself too. I got a nice storage bin for my bathroom. My only closet space in this house is a teeny, tiny little 2ft thing. So, I'm relieved to get that. I also got a bit of fabric for a project I'm working on for myself. See, while I have a purse, it isn't quite big enough and I can't put it on my shoulder. Since I am a larger person, conventional messenger purses don't work or aren't comfortable for me. So, I'm making my own. I found some linen fabric. I'm hoping it comes out alright but as long as it doesn't fall apart, I'm not horribly concerned about how it looks.
I might be able to finish it tonight and if I do, I will post some pictures tomorrow (assuming it's nice enough for photos!)
I hope everyone has a blessed weekend!
Elisabeth
I went shopping by myself too. I got a nice storage bin for my bathroom. My only closet space in this house is a teeny, tiny little 2ft thing. So, I'm relieved to get that. I also got a bit of fabric for a project I'm working on for myself. See, while I have a purse, it isn't quite big enough and I can't put it on my shoulder. Since I am a larger person, conventional messenger purses don't work or aren't comfortable for me. So, I'm making my own. I found some linen fabric. I'm hoping it comes out alright but as long as it doesn't fall apart, I'm not horribly concerned about how it looks.
I might be able to finish it tonight and if I do, I will post some pictures tomorrow (assuming it's nice enough for photos!)
I hope everyone has a blessed weekend!
Elisabeth
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Headcoverings galore!
I found a website of head coverings through another blog. Again, won't name it so as to avoid causing trouble.
They had some really pretty head coverings to order. And some left me a little confused. I wasn't sure how a thin band of fabric, 2 inches wide, could constitute a proper Christian head covering. That seems more like a fashion statement to me. Vanity instead of modesty. Especially when it comes in fashion designer prints!
For me, personally, a modest Christian head covering is something of a plain, single color (white, cream, brown, black, maybe blue, pink, green, etc.). I don't care for prints as I think it draws too much attention to my head and hair. I like plain, simple colors in a mostly neutral tone. Though as my 'wardrobe' of head coverings builds up, I may find I like or even need some in other colors like blues, greens, reds or yellows. For now, I'm only wearing a black scarf.
So, it got me wondering.... what does a head covering mean to you? What does it need to be, consist of or what have you? Does it need to be a plain, single, neutral color? Or do you prefer fun, sassy prints? Do you cover your entire hair? Wear a thin headband style? A kerchief style? Traditional Amish-style kapp? I look forward to possibly getting some opinions on this one.
God bless!
Elisabeth
They had some really pretty head coverings to order. And some left me a little confused. I wasn't sure how a thin band of fabric, 2 inches wide, could constitute a proper Christian head covering. That seems more like a fashion statement to me. Vanity instead of modesty. Especially when it comes in fashion designer prints!
For me, personally, a modest Christian head covering is something of a plain, single color (white, cream, brown, black, maybe blue, pink, green, etc.). I don't care for prints as I think it draws too much attention to my head and hair. I like plain, simple colors in a mostly neutral tone. Though as my 'wardrobe' of head coverings builds up, I may find I like or even need some in other colors like blues, greens, reds or yellows. For now, I'm only wearing a black scarf.
So, it got me wondering.... what does a head covering mean to you? What does it need to be, consist of or what have you? Does it need to be a plain, single, neutral color? Or do you prefer fun, sassy prints? Do you cover your entire hair? Wear a thin headband style? A kerchief style? Traditional Amish-style kapp? I look forward to possibly getting some opinions on this one.
God bless!
Elisabeth
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Titus 2 - Education
I came across a website earlier today. It was a website for the 'ministry of encouraging courtship'. I am feeling more and more like courtship might be for me over dating around. So, I have been on the prowl today for resources and came across this specific one. I won't name it so as to try and avoid causing trouble or offending anyone.
But there was a snippet of words that caught my eye and got my brain whirling. It said something along the lines of, "and according to Titus 2, women shouldn't go to college or educate themselves except in household duties."
So, I looked up Titus 2. The only verse concerning women says nothing about college though it says a little about house work. I'm curious how they got the idea that it was stating women sin if they go to college. I have been to college and plan to finish out an associate's degree in business. I would rather have a back up plan in case something tragic were to happen than to be stranded with no way to support myself or even my kids.
Am I a sinner because I have chosen to educate myself past high school? I don't really think so. But read the verses for yourself and form your own thoughts. :-)
That is the only verse in Titus 2 concerning women at all. I looked it up in many other translations and the wording doesn't change hardly at all- there is still mention of keeping home and obedience to husbands but nothing about college or higher education.
I would love to know others' opinions on this. It's something perplexing to me how different people can read the same thing but get completely different messages from it. I'd love some different perspectives!
God Bless!
Elisabeth
But there was a snippet of words that caught my eye and got my brain whirling. It said something along the lines of, "and according to Titus 2, women shouldn't go to college or educate themselves except in household duties."
So, I looked up Titus 2. The only verse concerning women says nothing about college though it says a little about house work. I'm curious how they got the idea that it was stating women sin if they go to college. I have been to college and plan to finish out an associate's degree in business. I would rather have a back up plan in case something tragic were to happen than to be stranded with no way to support myself or even my kids.
Am I a sinner because I have chosen to educate myself past high school? I don't really think so. But read the verses for yourself and form your own thoughts. :-)
3Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. 4Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, 5to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God. (Titus 2:3-5; NIV)
That is the only verse in Titus 2 concerning women at all. I looked it up in many other translations and the wording doesn't change hardly at all- there is still mention of keeping home and obedience to husbands but nothing about college or higher education.
I would love to know others' opinions on this. It's something perplexing to me how different people can read the same thing but get completely different messages from it. I'd love some different perspectives!
God Bless!
Elisabeth
What is "anti-flaunt"?
While it seems like that question could have an obvious answer, it may not.
flaunt
1. to parade or display oneself conspicuously, defiantly or boldy.
2. the wave conspicuously in the air.
Let us examine the first one. "To parade or display oneself conspicuously, defiantly or boldly." Essentially, that means showing off one's body in an immodest way. As a Christian woman, I do not believe in flaunting my body and objectifying myself. I would not encourage anyone to do that.
There are a lot of potential aspects to Christian modesty. The biggest one I have always practiced, even before I was saved, was to make sure my body was always properly covered- no cleavage, no shorts or skirts above my knees and no midriff. In school, we wore uniforms and the skirts only came a certain length, so I always wore shorts under them to keep my modesty.
In 2007, I felt inclined to begin investigating Christian veiling for women. I used to live in Ohio so at the time, largely considered it to be an Amish thing. As I learned more through blogs, vlogs and internet articles, I learned more of the Biblical basis behind it. For awhile, it left my thoughts but it has recently returned with a fierceness. Not just that but also to have long, feminine hair. Since I had been coloring my hair since the age of 12, it wouldn't ever grow very long. I am currently in the process of cutting out the last bits of artificial color. So, right now, my hair is still very short but it is much healthier.
A few days ago, something happened that prompted me to finally wear the veiling, in public without any sort of embarassment. I went to get some more of the color cut out of my hair. The woman misunderstood me and cut way more off than I could handle. It is buzzed bald in the back, in fact. I felt so un-feminine and I wanted to cry. I still want to cry when I look at it!
My mom was with me and we immediately went and bought a scarf so that I could tie it on my head so we could finish our errands. I am currently tying it in such a way that the tails of the scarf simply hang down my back. It feels more feminine than anything mostly because it feels like long, flowing hair hanging down my back. I have already found that I am more comfortable going out in public with my head covered than I ever was without it. I don't feel weird and I have truly realized that I don't care what people think of my appearance.
It is a very humbling experience. Though I do get the feeling that many do not see this as a religious sentiment but a medical one. Seeing as the bald peach fuzz in the back still kind of shows, no matter how I tie the scarf, I get the feeling I look more like a chemo patient than anything else. That doesn't bother me for I would feel very ashamed to walk around with this horrible haircut exposed.
I really feel this is the beginning of my lifelong veiling according to 1 Corinthians 11. Sure, it took a shamefully bad haircut to prompt me to walk around with my head covered publicly. But while I am sad about the improper hair cut, I am also grateful for what it has already shown me.
Aside from covering my head, I am generally following my own standards of modesty. I'm not into full blown skirts and dresses mode yet. If I ever am, that will take awhile longer for me. I still wear pants and trousers, mostly because that is all my wardrobe really is. I own only one skirt as of right now.
But I hope to acquire a few more skirts in the coming months as well as more plain shirts. Most of my shirts are prints, somewhat flashy prints and many I have owned for quite some time now- they are getting frayed, losing their beaded adornments, etc. I recently got a simple pink shirt and I felt so feminine but simple in it. It was great coupled with my black skirt. So, I want to build up my wardrobe with more plain but feminine shirts.
I'd love it if anyone has tips for going modest, covering your head, etc.
Thanks and God Bless!
Elisabeth
flaunt
1. to parade or display oneself conspicuously, defiantly or boldy.
2. the wave conspicuously in the air.
Let us examine the first one. "To parade or display oneself conspicuously, defiantly or boldly." Essentially, that means showing off one's body in an immodest way. As a Christian woman, I do not believe in flaunting my body and objectifying myself. I would not encourage anyone to do that.
There are a lot of potential aspects to Christian modesty. The biggest one I have always practiced, even before I was saved, was to make sure my body was always properly covered- no cleavage, no shorts or skirts above my knees and no midriff. In school, we wore uniforms and the skirts only came a certain length, so I always wore shorts under them to keep my modesty.
In 2007, I felt inclined to begin investigating Christian veiling for women. I used to live in Ohio so at the time, largely considered it to be an Amish thing. As I learned more through blogs, vlogs and internet articles, I learned more of the Biblical basis behind it. For awhile, it left my thoughts but it has recently returned with a fierceness. Not just that but also to have long, feminine hair. Since I had been coloring my hair since the age of 12, it wouldn't ever grow very long. I am currently in the process of cutting out the last bits of artificial color. So, right now, my hair is still very short but it is much healthier.
A few days ago, something happened that prompted me to finally wear the veiling, in public without any sort of embarassment. I went to get some more of the color cut out of my hair. The woman misunderstood me and cut way more off than I could handle. It is buzzed bald in the back, in fact. I felt so un-feminine and I wanted to cry. I still want to cry when I look at it!
My mom was with me and we immediately went and bought a scarf so that I could tie it on my head so we could finish our errands. I am currently tying it in such a way that the tails of the scarf simply hang down my back. It feels more feminine than anything mostly because it feels like long, flowing hair hanging down my back. I have already found that I am more comfortable going out in public with my head covered than I ever was without it. I don't feel weird and I have truly realized that I don't care what people think of my appearance.
It is a very humbling experience. Though I do get the feeling that many do not see this as a religious sentiment but a medical one. Seeing as the bald peach fuzz in the back still kind of shows, no matter how I tie the scarf, I get the feeling I look more like a chemo patient than anything else. That doesn't bother me for I would feel very ashamed to walk around with this horrible haircut exposed.
I really feel this is the beginning of my lifelong veiling according to 1 Corinthians 11. Sure, it took a shamefully bad haircut to prompt me to walk around with my head covered publicly. But while I am sad about the improper hair cut, I am also grateful for what it has already shown me.
Aside from covering my head, I am generally following my own standards of modesty. I'm not into full blown skirts and dresses mode yet. If I ever am, that will take awhile longer for me. I still wear pants and trousers, mostly because that is all my wardrobe really is. I own only one skirt as of right now.
But I hope to acquire a few more skirts in the coming months as well as more plain shirts. Most of my shirts are prints, somewhat flashy prints and many I have owned for quite some time now- they are getting frayed, losing their beaded adornments, etc. I recently got a simple pink shirt and I felt so feminine but simple in it. It was great coupled with my black skirt. So, I want to build up my wardrobe with more plain but feminine shirts.
I'd love it if anyone has tips for going modest, covering your head, etc.
Thanks and God Bless!
Elisabeth
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